http://www.iviewtube.com/v/89320/16-year-old-derrion-albert-beaten-to-death-in-chicago
^ Watch that. It made me cry & I don't know the kid. It's just terrible. So he's innocently leaving school & gets caught in a confrontation between gangs. They beat him w/ RAILROAD TIES & kill him. HONOR STUDENT. Leaving school, just in the wrong place at the wrong time, around the wrong people. He's not in the gang or affiliated with it, they murder him just because. & you know what kills me? The ignorant ass person recording doesn't seem bothered AT ALL. These "gangs" are young people who are ignorant beings, looking for an image. The world needs to change, greatly. Cuz shit like this, it's not doing anything for anyone.
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Monday, July 12, 2010
This shit called Life.
Life. Is. Annoying.
I just can't figure this shit out. WE'RE BORN TO LIVE, BUT LIVE TO DIE. Then, we're supposed to live this goody-two-shoes ass life to have an even better 'after-life'?. Nah nah nah, I say FUCK THAT.
Good is boring. Following the rules is boring. Being told what to do is boring. & I don't plan on living a boring life. I wanna have stories to tell people about how I did some super fun shit but got in trouble for it. Cuz the only REAL fun to me is when you bend the rules a little. :x.
No, I'm not a bad person. If you asked someone who knew me well, they'd probably tell you I'm quite innocent & quiet. But being that, I NEVER DO SHIT. & That shits boring. I suck at this blog thing. I always have a goal in mind but by the time I start typing shit, I duno what the fuck I'm even talking about anymore. Kbye.
I just can't figure this shit out. WE'RE BORN TO LIVE, BUT LIVE TO DIE. Then, we're supposed to live this goody-two-shoes ass life to have an even better 'after-life'?. Nah nah nah, I say FUCK THAT.
Good is boring. Following the rules is boring. Being told what to do is boring. & I don't plan on living a boring life. I wanna have stories to tell people about how I did some super fun shit but got in trouble for it. Cuz the only REAL fun to me is when you bend the rules a little. :x.
No, I'm not a bad person. If you asked someone who knew me well, they'd probably tell you I'm quite innocent & quiet. But being that, I NEVER DO SHIT. & That shits boring. I suck at this blog thing. I always have a goal in mind but by the time I start typing shit, I duno what the fuck I'm even talking about anymore. Kbye.
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
expannnnnnd.
L O R E N (;
- fifteen .
- weird .
- irritated .
- honest .
- funnnnny .
- & straight up gangster .
i said irritated . & no, that's not current . it's an all - the - time thing . i'm always irritated cuz i don't really like people , & i'm surrounded by those muthafuckas . so you see my problem .
15 is the age of thinking & still being confused .
i say i'm weird, cuz i'm not normal .
i'm a gangster because well...because i'm me. simple as that. flat as pancakes.
i can remember a time when i wanted to fit in so bad. just be like the people in "that crowd" that intimidated everyone else & talked about other people and didn't have to worry about people talking back.
i look back at that time , and L M F A O .
"that crowd" is just a bunch of ignorant people. who are typically cocky as hell but have no type of sense , common or school wise. inconsiderate fucks, if you will. they entertain me.
i shouldn't be talking shit , but i am. i'm not even smart myself but i'm smarter than them. & i have to say, if i'm smarter than you ; YOU'RE DUMB AS HELL. (:
i got all off topic but whatever. shit, i'm bored.
- fifteen .
- weird .
- irritated .
- honest .
- funnnnny .
- & straight up gangster .
i said irritated . & no, that's not current . it's an all - the - time thing . i'm always irritated cuz i don't really like people , & i'm surrounded by those muthafuckas . so you see my problem .
15 is the age of thinking & still being confused .
i say i'm weird, cuz i'm not normal .
i'm a gangster because well...because i'm me. simple as that. flat as pancakes.
i can remember a time when i wanted to fit in so bad. just be like the people in "that crowd" that intimidated everyone else & talked about other people and didn't have to worry about people talking back.
i look back at that time , and L M F A O .
"that crowd" is just a bunch of ignorant people. who are typically cocky as hell but have no type of sense , common or school wise. inconsiderate fucks, if you will. they entertain me.
i shouldn't be talking shit , but i am. i'm not even smart myself but i'm smarter than them. & i have to say, if i'm smarter than you ; YOU'RE DUMB AS HELL. (:
i got all off topic but whatever. shit, i'm bored.
society is one big epic fail.
Problem #1 - the lack of originality.
- - to me it seems as if someone wants to be like someone else. & i honestly think its lame and boring. i mean, what is a group of people if they're all the same, have the same personality, act alike, like the same music, etc? boring. diversity makes everything better. it further spreads ideas & opinions & ORIGINALITY. what if everyone wore the same color? what would be expression? nooothing. originality is self expression. the world (or at least the teen world) works like this: Jim buys $400 jeans w/ the tag hanging off the side, just to flaunt & claim he's "rich". Then Danny has to buy the same jeans to step his game up. Then all the guys on the basketball team have to also so they won't look "broke" or "lame". & Truthfully, Danny doesn't even like the jeans. He just buys them to look better in the eyes of other people. FAIL. Buuuuuut. In the next month, the jeans will be out of style so Danny looks retarded for buying $400 jeans that he didn't even like just to be "rich". Haha. The solution to this problem is to be original. Instead of buying the jeans everyone wears, buy the shorts that you like & S T A N D O U T .
Problem #2 - people crave too much attention.
- - this sort of corresponds with problem #1. & the major lesson in both of these problems is ignorance. people (mostly directed towards females) will do anything for a reaction. mostly, dumb shit. & my two of my best FEMALE friends do this regularly in front of people & it pisses me the fuck off. this is a real example. me & my friend are at my house chillllin'. acting silly, being OURSELVES. thennnn, we go & chill w/ the guys. i immeadiately know she's about to change up & put on a show. we get in front of them & she's a new person. why? BECAUSE SHE WANTS ATTENTION. & she's absolutely beautiful. she doesn't need to act loud & ghetto & start dancing in front of boys to get attention. she just needs to be remain chill. attention will attract you if your worth it. & if you notice people who do stuff for attention, usually look stupid in the end.
* now these two problems may seem inverse of one another. the first solution was to stand out & the second solution was remain chill. but both involve you not being you, but in different ways.
- - to me it seems as if someone wants to be like someone else. & i honestly think its lame and boring. i mean, what is a group of people if they're all the same, have the same personality, act alike, like the same music, etc? boring. diversity makes everything better. it further spreads ideas & opinions & ORIGINALITY. what if everyone wore the same color? what would be expression? nooothing. originality is self expression. the world (or at least the teen world) works like this: Jim buys $400 jeans w/ the tag hanging off the side, just to flaunt & claim he's "rich". Then Danny has to buy the same jeans to step his game up. Then all the guys on the basketball team have to also so they won't look "broke" or "lame". & Truthfully, Danny doesn't even like the jeans. He just buys them to look better in the eyes of other people. FAIL. Buuuuuut. In the next month, the jeans will be out of style so Danny looks retarded for buying $400 jeans that he didn't even like just to be "rich". Haha. The solution to this problem is to be original. Instead of buying the jeans everyone wears, buy the shorts that you like & S T A N D O U T .
Problem #2 - people crave too much attention.
- - this sort of corresponds with problem #1. & the major lesson in both of these problems is ignorance. people (mostly directed towards females) will do anything for a reaction. mostly, dumb shit. & my two of my best FEMALE friends do this regularly in front of people & it pisses me the fuck off. this is a real example. me & my friend are at my house chillllin'. acting silly, being OURSELVES. thennnn, we go & chill w/ the guys. i immeadiately know she's about to change up & put on a show. we get in front of them & she's a new person. why? BECAUSE SHE WANTS ATTENTION. & she's absolutely beautiful. she doesn't need to act loud & ghetto & start dancing in front of boys to get attention. she just needs to be remain chill. attention will attract you if your worth it. & if you notice people who do stuff for attention, usually look stupid in the end.
* now these two problems may seem inverse of one another. the first solution was to stand out & the second solution was remain chill. but both involve you not being you, but in different ways.
Sunday, May 2, 2010
Day One, Post Two.
Kayso. I don't understand why people judge you based on your beliefs. Like really. You were my friend before, I haven't changed. I just came out &told you something you didn't know . I'm still the same person I was, you just have more knowledge of me. NO ONE is going to like EVERYTHING about you. Not your friends. Not your teachers. Not your siblings. Not your parents. NO ONE. So I don't see why when I don't like doing something you do, I'm a bad person or I'm bold or you don't want to be my friend anymore. It's really stupid to me. I don't understand. Someone should explain it to me. To my real friends, I LOVE YOU GUYS WITH EVERYTHING I HAVE IN ME. To the ones who don't want to talk to me because I don't like going to church and don't care about religious stuff, FUCK YOU. You shouldn't have been my "friend" in the first place. Do me a fucking favor and lick my right nut and choke on the left.
Day One.
So I came home from church not too long ago. I wasn't exactly paying attention to the pastor because I was thinking too much, I do this and it gets in the way of everything. It's very hard for me to concentrate lately. But anyway. My family was always raised in a Christian way; the belief that God started life and we should all praise him for giving us life &having his son die on the cross for our sins. That idea. But I spoke with my uncle this past weekend and he put some thoughts into my head, idk whether good or bad. But I'm not really into the whole religious thing&I feel wrong for it because that's how the rest of my family is. My mom said to me that I didn't seem like I was paying attention and I really couldn't relate to most of the things the pastor was saying. I felt like I shouldn't be there. I always get "Awh, it's so wonderful that you're going to church with your mother" and blah blah blah. But I go because I HAVE to, not because I WANT to. I don't understand how you can believe something with your spirit and all that stuff. It doesn't make sense. So basically I feel like a disgrace to my family because I'm not all into the Holy stuff like they are. If I died today, I wouldn't know whether I'd go to heaven or hell. I believe there is a God but I'm not super interested in learning about everything they teach in church. I'm 15. My plan right now is to finish high school, have fun &wait for the summer. I could really care less about all the religious stuff right now.
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